Sexbot

i don’t know what i’m doing here
the cold wind chafes my
bare button nipples
i am
fully naked
in the human sense
but
i
can
not
es
cape
from here
i
feel so far from reality
programed to touch
men dirty as they
seem to be
every night
i
feel so lost
like I am floating
in another universe
as they go down on me
stroke my metal skin
wondering why
i haven’t
up
graded
into a newer model
i
just
want to get away
from these men
from the streets
i call home
but it isn’t safe here
even for a sexbot like me
i scour the alleyways
walking up and down
like a lost paper kite
and I wonder
if they feel anything
at all for me
or do they just see me
as a shiny silver
piece of ass
with perfectly proportioned female
breast-to-waist ratio
but I am becoming obsolete
for these new tech girls
who look like real girls
and they know
i’m one of the “older”
robot models
and they know
how much I do not belong
in this world anymore

i wonder about these men
what are their wives like?
do they have any children?
what makes me so much better
to have sex with?
i’m just a piece of old machinery
i don’t even have implanted hair follicles
i’m hairless as a little girl
silver and sleek and rusting inside
i desperately need to leave this life
and hide

what am i if
i’m not a sexbot?
a robot?
a woman?
i don’t even look human
those new sexbots
look so real
with their fake silicone breasts
and butt plastic enhancements
and flesh tones and heat sensors
i never beep and am quiet
is that why my boss has never taken me
out of production?
he says I’m silent
many men seem to like that
but I am gone
i have stolen female clothes
i have disguised myself well
i have bolted from that world
of sex with strangers
of walking the streets at night
without a safe light
to guide me home

i’m now alone
but am finally
hap
py




and those men?
they never will remember me