Nights of Elation and Terror: The Barn Owl’s Hymn

A little bit of hope goes a long way. Sometimes the process is painful. Starts out as a dragon and turns into a jelly cake. From hard scales to soft jello. A little bit of hope goes a long way. Billie gets it. What it means to be single. Open, aware, and calm. Totally okay with being alone and NOT in a romantic/sexual relationship right now. Being single means Freedom. This year is coming to an end. Still not normal, still full of fear and anxiety yet a little bit of hope trickles into neon green hair and dreams and fantasies become one One. Two. Three. I’m fine with being a dragon with its wings clipped. Or an Barn Owl whose caught in a cage. Stuck in her barn with lots of family and hay. At least I can see; at least I can hear. At least I can holler and swear! I’m healthy, anxious, horny, stuck. I’m waiting, wishing, wanting, fuck. I’m wilting, frigid, blooming, muck. I’m growing, changing, holding luck. A little bit of hope goes a long way. And Billie, I’m counting on you… I’m counting on you to get me through the nights of elation and terror.